Just for administrative purposes only.

2009-02-15T21:28:00.001+08:00

每次看你最后一面的时候

才发现那才叫美丽

2009-02-15T21:21:00.000+08:00

Just sent another person off ..

Sigh..

When will the next one be..

again..

2009-02-09T21:01:00.006+08:00

ay,this cannot be heard

Senses and hences and hences and actions
That is the logic of the world
No logic no doubting no doubting no critics
This is the logic of here

Maybe just maybe it might be it will be
That freedom of love might be near
Take my hand take your hand take your hand take my hand
Roughness of life and tenderness of nature

We had the times we enjoy and enjoy the times we had
Just the two of us in our happy world
All the ups and going downs and remaining downs and shooting ups
Gazing at the stars after all the herds go to beds

Maybe ten more years will do the Queen will make us true
Even not so fret not too I will still love you

2009-02-03T21:11:00.004+08:00

<<那个房间>>

没说出来，越隐藏越是伤害。
安慰只是无奈，在心中被自己掩埋。
你说出来，我明白你的不明白。
都是清醒的，所以才想逃开。

没有伪装，在微弱灯光下你脸更加迷茫，你从来没有这样。
木头的桌椅，两边隔着不同的无情。
旧的朋友，新的恋人，
这个房间听到两把哭泣。

哭泣只能放进嘴角后面，
收拾心情离开那个房间，
在门外继续守候，

那一个不属于我的房间。

2008-12-17T23:34:00.003+08:00

Was having dinner with faustina and Ben just now at 85 and I really felt touched by the holy spirits while talking.It's like something that we have prayed for 3 years ago!It just made me realised that God has not forgotten our prayers and now He is answering it!Perhaps God wants us to strenghten us first before He wants to use us for evangelism..Anyway really thankful to have such a fun time of sharing and listening: )
OH btw I was assured that I have a gift of discernment haha

Anw a group of us were discussing about different people having different characters and I guess it is really true.How can we really relate to one another and form close bonds when some of our personality clashes?We really need to speak in love when we approach one another about our strengths and weaknesses and all that we do is to help us grow together in Christ!Lord please raise the young generation and guide them!

2008-12-08T11:58:00.003+08:00

Back from Renai Camp I'm in HIM and I am lagging with this post!Haha anyway I really got to know a lot more of the Renai people especially the younger ones.I also learnt alot through this camp not only as a group leader of such young kids but also part of the P&W team..what it truely means a heart of worship.I was especially inspired by the worship night of the 2nd day when I really feel that the whole band was anointed and that great music just flow because of simple hearts that just simply wants to worship God and there was unity.The practices were really horrendous and noisy if you were there to watch you would truely understand what I mean..like the band was so uncoordinated and the vocalists also cannot find the harmony that kind of stuff..but I really thank God for delivering us into such a great night when you tell us that worship could just be so simple and it does not matter how young you are.

"Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity."
1 Timothy 4:12

I was also truely encouraged by how God has shaped people in this camp specifically Cuifen Supeng Aletheia Janus Abner Chinhee Lowell Jason Eunice Cheesoon and so many others..continue to serve in Renai without forgetting the mission and to really grow together: )

Let us cast aside any GG-ness and forget any seniority in Renai and really learn from one another through sharing and activities: )

2008-11-27T00:00:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU SENIORS

I was very tired just now at the farewell bbq but i really wanted to thank the seniors for putting in the effort to make the whole bbq fun and to talk to us about the course and everything.I never really knew how to be a senior and I was really never taught how to be one but the advices that you guys gave seemed to be unnecessary!When I look at you guys it is exactly what I want myself to be!I was really inspired because of the line I always drew between the course and my life,like I don't want to be too involved in TSD but I really learnt that we have to enjoy what we do and ultimately we will see the results.Results?maybe not even in the acadamic area but what we gain from it;friendships?experience?and those that make us grow as an individual and as a batch.I never really mixed well with my seniors(church,sec sch,jc) and i cannot really express myself in front of them but I really want to thank you guys even though i might know the little of you.Thanks for being so sincere in wanting to give us good advices and Thanks for being so naggy just like how we feel we are one family.

THANK YOU: )

2008-11-09T20:27:00.007+08:00

Currently addicted to WGM the lettuce couple(Hwang Bo

and Hyun Joong) but heard that they are gonna 'break up'

due to hyun joong's schedules for a movie.I am currently

still trying to recover from the shock so please send me some

encouragements.Thanks a lot: (

Oh anw Hyun Joong is the leader of a kr band 'SS501' while

Hwang Bo was the leader of a kr group 'Chakra' which disbanded.

Both of them are talented and diversified artists...: (

I am looking for SS501 albums tomorrow: )

2008-11-08T00:23:00.004+08:00

I was linking arnd and I came upon this line that says:

"He who puts on a mask,
cannot sees his true self "

and I guess its really true.Sometimes when we try/pretend to be somebody else we often lose our own directions and eventually forget how we wanted ourselves to be.I guess its the confidence that we must have that we are all created uniquely and beautifully.We just have to be ourselves and people will be attracted to in in ways you can NEVER imagine.

"The mask is beautiful but subjective,
it's what lies underneath the skin;
that a true heart can beat with strangers,

and eyes that attract no boundaries."

2008-11-06T23:21:00.003+08:00

FALLING IN LOVE :)

2008-10-28T23:36:00.003+08:00

Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts

We're empty

2008-10-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

This is a post that allow us to look beneath one another as well as a self-realisation - if we have been leading two different lives in front and behind of others.Have we been masking ourselves with false happiness so much so that when the ugliness of life starts to hit us even our skin starts to wear off.If our answer is YES then maybe we should re-evaluate our lives and start to search for a purpose in Life and start leading a life of our own.

One minute , One second - Epik High ft Taru

2008-10-26T09:07:00.004+08:00

2008-10-23T20:03:00.002+08:00

好人因坏人存在
其实在他们的心里

也想做些坏事。

2008-10-23T19:24:00.003+08:00

bored.finding job @ kino but commitment very high..shld I?
maybe I should try starbucks instead but..

anw the whole weekly duo thing is really getting irritating.
and theres PW workshop tmw.
Life is getting irritating sometimes..

BUT THERE ARE ALWAYS FRIENDS WHO WILL
BRIGHTEN UP YOUR DAY: )

ALWAYS.

2008-10-22T22:01:00.003+08:00

So..How's Life

is the phrase I have been using recently ,to find out more about people and things.I guess I can get really irritating at times but i am really keen into knowing who you are!Recently I had some chats with a few of my classmates and friends and I got some new inspirations.I just thought that all of us have our weaknesses and we need to find out each of ours.Indeed we want to lead a life of our own and not bother about other people ,but how can we not be affected when gossips and rumours start to come in?

BALANCE

is
what
we need.

I guess i want to know my friends through personal encounters and maybe even downs and get my own impression of them.I do not want to form images on words.They will crumble and fall apart.Some people say that we cannot really make any friends in JC life and I think i mentioned in in my earlier posts..but i think I will have to disagree now.Well some of us are still unwilling to let go of our past/emotions and share with our friends but I guess this is perfectly normal.Hopefully time will make us closer and as we talk,each day would become a blessing.I really like the atmosphere now.Like how we can share more personal stuff and things like that.Cool.I can totally understand your feelings Rui ting!And I totally agree with you because I am in the same situation as you are.Haha.Don't worry we can still meet up !

2008-10-21T22:10:00.003+08:00

Impressions

What we get from one another are only impressions
Not the real encounters just the gossips
But the people they say say the people you know
That leaves us amazed and laugh

But Laughter is not a medicine anymore
They have left deep impressions in all of us
And often we cannot forget the shadows
Flickers one two three,and then it blows;no more

You cannot imagine what they can imagine
And laugh and be amazed like them and me
But expectations they say is the most important thing
To break away from this circle free

I want to have my own impression of you
And meet you like an eye candy on the street
But often what we are introduced to are just impressions

Only to be impressed by more false impressions

2008-10-19T15:31:00.003+08:00

这天 - 苏打绿

够深刻了吗

来躺下吧

让我轻抚你安慰

伤害我後的疲累

够尖锐了吗

看我的疤用温柔包覆勇敢

给喘息的你笑脸

生命从来不觉得自己对谁该负责任

太多虚伪情节的表面模糊陌生的眼请

让我在你身边

一起穿越这条街

请让我在你身边

一起纪念

够痛快了吗

我知道啊躲在你利刃之内

骄傲的自卑作祟

够鲜艳了吗血染的花

被你刺满的双手

此刻擦乾你眼泪

生命从来不觉得自己对谁该负责任

我们看了编造的谎言就如此轻易将彼此划成碎片

太多虚伪情节的表面模糊陌生的眼请

让我在你身边

一起穿越这条街

请让我在你身边

一起纪念这一天

总有一天我们都死去丢掉名字的回忆再没有意义

总有一天我们都忘记曾为了一个越演越烂的故事伤心

总有一天我们都叹息笑着缅怀有过的愚蠢的美丽

就让现在过去

让我握你的手

让你握我的手

彻底了解颤抖

你会知道我

让我握你的手

让你握我的手

彻底了解颤抖

你会知道我

让我握你的手

你会知道我

让我在你身边

一起穿越这条街请

让我在你身边

一起纪念这一天

透过我的眼泪看你的脸自

由是我们需要的特权

你笑了,我笑了,笑了

这一天

2008-10-19T15:22:00.005+08:00

HAHA

YO A15!bet you guys came here thru yelun's blog lol

anw all the best for your OP prep: )

2008-10-16T22:39:00.017+08:00

Lead Me To The Way Back Home

The night's cold you have been through
but the lonliness inside
is the most painful
when you walk this alley alone too soon;

And these shadows just come and go
And the rivers won't stop their flow
Just because I suffer yet another blow

Lead me to the way back home
Cause it's dark and black and I don't want to be alone
Dear friend Would you bring me back
To the songs I could sing with pride and call our own

Its the anger I have to let go
Its the ego its time that I know
After all this I still stand alone
All I wanna do is just to go home

Won't you hold my hand this time
Like you'd always in the past
So don't drift too far
Cause I need you to(o) come home

And the regrets I held on too long
And the summers We have wasted and more
You don't have to say a word

This song is inspired by two friends around me.I really hope that they can forget all the unhappiness and misunderstandings and come back together because life is short and how great it is to have really good friends?Don't regret in this lifetime.

2008-10-16T19:00:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Today's like one of the days I laughed totally during this year.We were in the art room with Amelia Dong Ying Amanda Andrew Desiree Zhan Yi and myself and were like talking crap and stuff and totally went mad.Tsktsktsk must repent liao..anw tmw gonna be a mad day as well I think..wah I was totally not concerned abt the duos la.Just laugh it off man!

hmmmmm: p

2008-10-09T20:42:00.006+08:00

Aye so long never come into this virtual place to post abt my life liao..haha..funny?no?okay.

Anyway had a really fun week with my class!ah went to have dinner with yvette jaime greg zhanyi and junyang on monday then tues..did do much[haha],wed..didnt do much also..oh havehave got play a bit of volleying-ball[hmm]with greg zhan yi and junyang,then tdy yvette sam yelun debra amelia zhanyi and junyang and I[and some other class de pple forget the names liao lol..dont know why bother to ask in the first place haha] went to play a bit of volleyball as well.wah super funny sia laughing thruout man.long-legged yvette[STRONG] and junyang-sam collision[almost] lol..at first wanted to see good show one[HAHA..somebody know]but someone left so cannot[oooohhh]..aye patch up soon okay?dont regret the day you guys cannot meet each other again anymore..

wah tdy darn malu sia.got cramp[S] during firedrill..oh ya got strained my ankle also[arg..the 5th time]SIAN..aye dont want talk about it liao..MALU sia[Oh anw thanks to those who helped me: )..aye you know i am thankful..NEXT TOPIC PLEASE!]anw today got back econs results!!!wow.just nice got 45 sia!totally heng sia!but maybe i want to take R paper..dunno la see first..

oh ya before gg back went to see the y2 art 作品 some quite interesting but some just..not logical..haha..maybe i not the artsy kind so dont understand..anw dunno why is junyang afraid of him?lol..doesnt make sense..anw..MISS CHIA[hahahahahaha]

Anw theres this guy that is not in my life seems to appear quite often in front of me nowadays..dunno whether he really hates me or..aiya dunno la..its just weird......WEIRD......

We got back our results this week and some of us might not be satisfied with our ones..i guess it is natural to be upset whatsoever..but dont remain in this state for long.Work harder and fight back alright?Maybe some of us are just not meant to take our favoured h3 subjects.Maybe we need to take R paper to show that we are A' students.What more can we ask for than a class who is so supportive and there for us?its LOVELOVELOVE: )

So fast it has been a few months already..and its almost the end of our year1 life..UPS ANd downs..sure..it seemed that I really like my class a lot.At the start of the term I thought to myself that I really dont want to bother to mingle with the class and sort but as i get to know more of them and discover their different personalities I realise I really love them.From pure strangers to awkward first-intaker v.s second-intaker to classmates and then to friends..it is not easy to open up hearts but once we make the effort to talk to one another and find out more about their lives[and gossips],we have taken the first step unknowingly..MANY OF THEM ARE SO PASSIVE INITIALLY this I must say..and it is only until months later when we truly talk to one another that kinda thing but it seemed like its gg quite well: )

Dunno whether they[A15!!!] treat me as a friend or not but i definitely do..dunno why so emotional but I just suddenly remembered that the JOURNEY from the start of sch til now has not been easy.They say JC friendships carnt last forever..well maybe..but i just hope that we can face problems together and stand strong in times of exams or whatsoever.Rock on man!And you guys know you rock tsk

: )

2008-09-20T21:46:00.002+08:00

Weijian has offcially become a Christian!

happy: )

anw exams next week and i am not really prepared so please
pray for me: )

thanks: )

2008-09-13T23:26:00.006+08:00

Okay..more recent photo of 2a: )

2008-09-05T01:03:00.004+08:00

2A'05
Reliving Those Days

When innocence was still our dominance

2008-09-04T23:54:00.004+08:00

Okay heard from a friend that I should post abt my life because I am parading with it(my life) everywhere u(I) go and people have the rights to know..so..

Actually for this like week I have been out..most of the time alone.Wanted to spend some time alone like I used to..and reflect.Been to esplande,tampines mall aiport and places that I used to be familiar with.I thought abt a lot of things,like how we can lose friends because time passes by so quickly,and like how the minorities are always the ones being outcasted.How much love do we need to receive first before we can start giving?

I have been thinking about my relationships with people and I was reminded about my j3 seniors..I was (self-)considered close with them as in the council seniors and like we used to like talk and do stuff together(we even had the new year's countdown in sch tgt!) but we sort of stopped talking to each other and soon aft we disappeared from each others' life.I was just thinking if we have to point out any regrets we have in life,mine is definately not finding out the misunderstandings or whatsoever that might have happened.I had no courage then.I had none.

Then i was reminded of my relationships with my juniors.I was always closer with my juniors than my own batch.In council esp within the welfare committee,I always enjoyed being with them even though my batch had huge disagreements with their batch(Who cares,they are still my friends),but it seems like we are slowly losing touch too..

It made me think if I don't know how to handle relationships well enough.My lower sec friends are slowly getting away even though I try very hard to have meet-ups..that was not the promise we made to each other was it?Sometimes when I see my school-mates I try to avoid them and walk away,that is not what it should be like,is it?

In 1A 2A I had to deal with problematic classmates who cut their wrists,organize a lot of things because I used to be the monitor and cause I was apparently in the major clique of the class.I had to face unreasonable teachers(one who happens to be my CCA techer and FORM teacher)who will shout at you for no reasons.People will watch your every move and try to find faults.People try to make use of your friendship for their own motives.Sometimes I ask myself yongsheng is it worth it?after all that you have done for them is it worth it?

I was in 3D 4D and I have to say I really had ups and downs there.How to handle disputes among classmates and the stress of being the only councillor in class were issues I had to face everyday.Sometimes I have fingers pointing at me because I was not being 'councillor-ly' not only from teachers but from my classmates as well.They will just tell you right in front of your face without considering your feelings,thinking that you are the joker of the class and therefore you should be able to take it.Sometimes I get disgusted by even my own friends and that's when I guess I started to go out alone.I used to take MRT/Bus to Woodlands Jurong Orchard Road(People like me live in the East) wherever I feel like going on that day itself.It felt as if I did not have to think about anything and everything is clean and clear.There was peace.And I loved it.Its probably when I have this quiet personality too I guess.I used to be laughing and joking around all the time but when I reached home its like being drained of energy and emotions.Friends thought that I have changed,but to me its for the better.It was so tiring(only on some Occasions I guess,that I felt this way) trying to bring joy to the class every single day.I had to break the ice for 4D and try to be inviting to Jovan who got transferred to our class when I myself got hurt.LOL I really dont want to complain cause I love my class so I will stop here.

Then I started to think that was I trying too hard to build relationships with my juniors that I forgot to let them look up to me as a big brother?(I am talking about this in the context of my church)Have I gone too far and too overboard?I only wanted to care for them!I did not think about any other things.Am I wrong?

I try to surpress my emotions whenever I face insults or nasty gossips about me but I have forgotten how to cry because I just couldnt.I hate to cry in front of people(except this once when it was council farewell)All I could do was to pray.Looking back at my life I would say I have experienced a lot,in fact (I would say) a lot more than my peers/classmates and I thought to Him that if He wants to take me now I can go with no regrets.But I realised that I have so much more to learn,so much more to experience and so much more to go through.There is just so much more waiting for me.How can I stop?How can I?

Maybe its a phase that everybody goes through and I believe most of us will.The big word:RELATIONSHIPS.This hits me especially hard though.In my life all I seek for is the relationships with people(and God) and how I can spread love around.Sounds very cliched but what have we all done today that is worthy of our own praise?Are we so caught up with life that we forgot how we wanted our lives to be?

Probably.

2008-09-01T21:38:00.003+08:00

Okay just had alpha course holy spirit weekend..its definately a fulfilling and amazing camp for me..in this 24 hrs I realised a lot,like how the juniors have been going through and the various struggles that they face..its hard,really..BUT ALWAYS LOOK UP TO GOD!!jiayou!its somethng you have to go through yourself to discover what this God means to you.

Ah yesterday went to esplanade and central and sort of walk arnd happened to have some mid-autumn festival thing and some performance.Managed to catch a performance by 'my little airport'..a hongkong band..quite cocky band..haha(just my personal opinions) might be their style but it is not appealing to me.Anw met teng hui and titus somewhere also: )

Ah I miss my classmates!okay resolution:Gonna stay in contact with my sec sch friends and try to go out more often with my jc friends: )
ps.As for church friends,we always meet: )

2008-08-29T17:53:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of term 3 which means hols are here!

but i am not really happy because firstly it means that promos are coming and secondly i have to miss seeing everybody in A15!!orhh~I think i am really starting to like my class ALOT..the people that I have not been talking much to such as Junyang Jaime Haryani Eva Samantha are opening up and I really thank God for that..I have to admit that I came into vj with the mindset of just studying and not gg the extra mile to make new friends but alas thank you A15 for making my day!Although I am positive that our class will definately face much conflicts and whatsoever but I believe I will really like my class: )

TSD too..I really love you guys!esp the friday workshop peeps: )
Dont get too upset with our grades because we have enjoyed ourselves during the rehearsals so whats there to be upset about?SMILE: )

Sorry junfeng!(you-know-what-I-mean: P)

2008-08-16T22:48:00.003+08:00

Heyyo back aft a long time..TSD exam mini IS is finally over!no comments on the exam but hopefully I can do quite well..groups(which means acting) is coming soon too so..must memorise the script liao..sian..

Okay today went to abner's house for cell outing..thought that his house is really very spacious and well-facilitised.Cool.Anyway played a little basketball(LOL) and table-tennis(found out that abner and Zhen Xi train secretly)..and then we went home..Oh thanks abner for lending me pants and shoes: )

Yepyep aft that I rushed down to eastpoint to meet up with 4D!!!there were alvin ,yeqin ,HongChew ,Jian Wen , Hui Juan ,Eloise ,Samantha and Rui Ting..HAPPY
Just sort of like have dinner and chatted a while and wanted to go TM but then everybody decided to chiong PW or promos[-. -]so we didnt..OH WELL.but i guess aft promos we can still..: )

Oh and Happy belated Bdae to YI RONG!sorry couldnt go for the outing cause promised class le..PSPS

2008-08-04T19:51:00.003+08:00

I was just thinking that friends are really important in our lives as christians to encourage and support one another.Fellowship: )

Anw had a great tym last friday with benedict[HAPPY BIRTHDAY],faustina[sort things out first],ying qian[-.-],debby[...] and jolene[2.4 queen]!..talk a lot of crap and stuff but yeah!hope that we can meet up again soon yar? : )

Anw..had a chat with sikai ge on sat and I am really looking forward to ken,kenneth and zing having follow-up with him!yeah I am sure sikai will do a great job: )And then I was reminded that sin yee said during cell that she does not have a close relationship with her group members like some of us do..but it striked me that every conversation was started by me and sometimes I dont even get replies from them[then I will feel very discouraged: ( ]..sometimes it is very tiring but whenever I think of them it just motivates me to concern abt them and know how have they been doing..it just "BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY" : )

This coming friday got musT and yf outing at sentosa quite looking forward to it: )

See you guys soon!

2008-07-24T18:53:00.003+08:00

Its mixed feelings for me today..

I really dont know what God wants me to do..I am really confused and I feel that sometimes..it's really very confusing.But I cont to pray..tomorrow got cell..maybe do a bit of sharing..: )

2008-07-24T08:54:00.005+08:00

God is really amazing!

I was praying for the four ppl yesterday..end of story.

Haha..then later estee actually agreed to go to yf today!and most probably she will get to meet up with shuyee jie and her group yay!this is of great news!and Jin han just like out of the blue msged me to ask about the details of yf last night as well!God is really good and who says God doesnt answer prayers?He has His plans for us and His plans are good.We just have to let Him use us instead of us wanting to control the situation.I have faith that God is also working on Ken and Kenneth as well.The work of prayers has come true!I love my God and I will perserve on!

: )

2008-07-23T16:13:00.003+08:00

Went to prayer meeting yesterday and I was reminded by God so much that I have to have a heart of servant and not saviour in my walk with God.It is especially true when I try to reach out to my friends because I often try to control the situation instead of letting God to control me.I was troubled by a lot of things recently but God refreshed me and now I am ready to face all the challenges ahead!God is really faithful to me.Friday I am meeting kenneth and I am decided to share with him about Christ.He is one person I have been praying for and I really pray God would make a way for me and I will proclaim His love clearly.Okay maybe if I meet kenneth ken would also come and then I will break the news that ______ is going to take him for follow-up haha.Okay and I finished my follow-up yest!and si hui keeps trying to push me to others for discipleship-. -..so awkward that day friday during dinner before the mission conference!crap..okay end off here: )

People that I want to pray for this week:

Ken.
Kenneth.
Estee.
Jin han.

2008-07-19T20:04:00.004+08:00

The(My) Student Camp group=Judo : )

2008-07-19T09:26:00.000+08:00

Ah i just got the news that kenneth is not coming..sianx..but i pray that he is able to make it next time: )

2008-07-18T13:47:00.003+08:00

I was msging my juniors and friends yesterday and I recieved what I call fast messages..Can't I just have a nice chat with you guys and like spend some QUALITY TIME?!its my love language okay!(tgt with acts of service and receiving gifts..but that's not the point!)okay to all my dear friends!!pls reply my msges like even though you forgot to last time or like you dont have the answer to my question,so that I wont worry about you guys!Ah!thoses people who reads my blog ah should know who!PS and benedict you are really very slow in replying my msg haha: )

Okay but all in all I realised that God is good: )esp wed when I went back to AHS i met few of my juniors and then i saw Jin han and managed to talk to him and share a bit about Christ: )Ah also he had a friend studying with him and she is a christian!then it dawn upon me that God is still in AHS as He still has his people in this school!She then prayed for me and Jin han before going home..HAPPY: ) oh also two of my juniors honoured their words and went for YF yest!I was really glad and I hope that they had a good time of fellowship there and will go regularly: )also ah this sat i am expecting kenneth and hong jun to come ah!(and ken too but I think he is just lazy and wants to eat at places FAR FAR away)ps i am going to send you guys my url: )

Okay I have to go for project work class liao all the best and god bless: )

2008-06-24T22:41:00.004+08:00

Hi guys!

hehe just as everybody is mugging for their myes i am here to blog!haha: ) haiya just for those who do visit my blog and are doubtful about my studies our j2 seniors are having their TSD(Theatre Studies and Drama)A levels next week and because we have to crew/slot/whatever for them we are excused from myes: ) well good and bad thing because then our promos would be 100%!!!!argg..pray to God for advice: )

Oh and today was my first time in the dunno-what prayer meeting of all saints haha.I really felt the presence of God there and as we were all praying for Anglican High School our emotions run high.I thought that it is so true that many times I forgot to keep this school in my prayers.And the fact that I always see AHS students..I never knew why..but I was reminded just now that it is to remind us to keep the students in prayers,that there will be a revival for a new generation.AHS was a school that brought many of us to Christ and I really want to spread this love to every of the AHS students..Please everybody remember to keep them in prayers and also the leaders serving in the student ministry;especially Cuifen jie in my mind,pray for new believers pray for protection against the devil and also to pray for si hui keli corrine and shu ling for are going for a short mission trip from tmw to next week: )

Thats all goodnight guys: )

2008-06-21T01:12:00.000+08:00

HEYHEY KEN!ITS YOUR BIRTHDAY TODAY!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!: )

I am going to dedicate one whole post for you!!okay i am going to force you to read my blog so you can see this!okay actually I feel that I could see shades of my old self in you.And the feeling is very strong.Nostalgia.Really we shall meet up soon okay?OKAY.And it's your birthday today!wooooo.AND- you never give me your address!crap ahaha u better give me your address soon!like asap HOR.haha i am like at airport and like typing this for you so you should be honoured and GO TO CHURCH!!haha ok and i think you are such a compassionate person: )seriously I do and you do show it.Si hui often mention that you would always listen to her talk and stuff.ORH~haha then she would be "This is the guy that I like"..haha deep impressions of that.And like throughout the amazing race you were like carrying stuff for si hui jie and like waiting for her.That's really nice of you and when estee jie comes to haunt you you will be like moving away shyly to like beside jeremy or whoever.hehe and then the dinner at simpang haha and then we met jun hong and nicholas and then the whole estee jie sort of like got out of hand haha okay estee's like beside me now haha and she is so tired she talks to herself: z
okay really hope that you can come and attend services or like all saints activities okay?!ah i can sense love around you and dont lose that love and innocence in you.I would be praying for you are you can talk to God too.You can share your troubles with him even though He knows everything long before they happen.Trust is important.Learn to OPEN your heart okay?I am still waiting for the day that you can really share with me: )I guess you can like call me or msg me anytime if you want okay?I will..TRY to reply ASAP I PROMISE--haha all the best: )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KEN LAM JIN HONG
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU~

2008-06-21T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today we had cell:) with yanbing jie after her trip to hong kong and we did some simple sharing.I thought that the trip for her really humbled her heart and renewed her heart of service as well.That's good and thank God for that.Also I thought that Weitian had the gift of stepping out of her comfort and sharing.That's good and thank God for that.I thought that Cherlyn has a thoughtful mind and compassionate heart for others.That's good and thank God for that.I thought that Eunice is so pure and innocent.That's good and thank God for that.

Advice to Sin Yee and Lee Peng;
Seek help from yan bing jie about you-know-what okay?!and sin yee who are you bringing to our cell next week?!i advice you to tell yan bing in advance just in case she gets a shock !!

musT
mUSt
grow spiritually and in strength..

but only with God's Blessings

For the next few weeks our cell might be facing crisis-es but hang on there because there's always people that will be keeping musT in prayers!!haha okay estee's saying I am pessimestic now but we shall see..mwhahaha!!: )

2008-06-09T21:37:00.000+08:00

It has been an amazing week for me.Student camp 08 has finished.Even though I am not a group leader or gong1 zhuo4 ren2 yuan2 for this camp I feel really recharged and refresh.Very happy for the sec4s who have accepted Christ it is really by God's Grace they can even come for this camp.Also thankful for all those who received Christ because it is a new life again.On the forth day of the camp I got to join SiHui's group for Amazing Race and know the group.When I first came into the contact with the group I was relieved because they are so proactive and cheerful.Thank God for this group of obedient kids and I would be keeping you guys in my prayers.To be honest I am really sad why didnt I get to know them much earlier.On the final night chun zing and ken decided to accept Christ.Thank God.Thank God.Thank God.Chun Zing accepted Christ on the final night.Si hui spent an hour or two talking to Ken in the morning while I sat outside the church waiting.The moment I saw him walking out in tears I know He is now ready.Thank God.Thank God.Thank God.

I have a lot of feelings that I want to share with all of you guys.Like how it is so amzaing to see a person so close to you from having doubts about Christ till receiving Him.It is very amazaing and I really thank God for that.However at the same time there is fear and worries in my heart but i believe ultimatlly we can get through all these together.Also during this camp I saw weaknesses,and that how different people have different expectations and style of handling people.I learnt a lot and I saw my cell leaders grow.I grew too.A lot.I saw my weaknesses too.But I guess we helped each other to grow and we learn from one another through sharing.It is always great to know friends who are also wanting to advance in Christ Kingdom.Thank God for my Cell members as well.

It has also been a self reflection for me that I realise I am so small.so small.But God never gave up on me and He continued to bless me.He never let go.I thank God for that.Seeing Sihui trying to put her heart and soul in getting to know the boys it is really inspiring.It has been a great camp.Really.Praise the Lord.

2008-06-05T23:45:00.000+08:00

Today was Chen xi's last day in singapore and a bunch of us went to send her off..I was thinking if our friends would start to leave us one by one just like that?I believe it was our honour as a class 4d'07 to have chenxi.Remember the first time she slept..the first time she was late for school..the first time she acted sexy..and then started to become herself?MinMin was there too and I think none of us chould have understood the pain she felt for losing her loved ones from her side and similarly I know all of my friends would eventually leave one by one.I am an emotional person,I dont know if any 4d peeps out there didnt even know if chenxi has already left but I do hope that all of us can remember her faithfully as OUR classmate,OUR friend.Chen Xi I would miss you and I hope you would not forget any of us!

Also to my other friends who might be feeling lonely and down for the past few months and I had been a complete jerk who cannot even sense it,I am sorry,I would be keeping you guys in prayer and I would you can talk to me if you really need someone.SORRY

2008-05-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

Omg my tsd mids got a D..but dont know why I am not feeling sad..at all..nope its not that I am too proud to admit or anything but I really dont feel sad..maybe becuase I didnt put in a lot of effort?haha I am just not cut for acting okay!!

Went to match supports for three events.Volley ball(girls), soccer(girls) and hockey(girls) volleyball lost to HCI , soccer won SAJC and hockey won MI!!wooo~tmw there will also be lots of matches going on but the highlight should be the soccer boys.(although I would be gg to badminton)ROCK ON VJ!: )

BTW CAN SOMEONE TELL ME WHEN IS SUJU GONNA RELEASE THEIR CONCERT DVD?!

2008-05-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

Arg!monologue mid-year piece is next week!just finished my critical commentary hopefull i can get the emotions of the character and do well!pray to God: )

Anyway life's usual.Later gonna meet stephanie and amanda study overnight at the airport though I am feeling a bit tired maybe will sleep but..haizz time to catch up some homework shuan4 bian4 edit my script.BTW student's camp coming!really excited but i dunno if I should take up the challenge to be zu3 zhang3 or not..maybe I should just do food..haizz ask God bahx..

Yeah I think I am going to confront that person soon so irritating.The words she use are smartly intelligent hah!LOL i am just waiting to see who else would be annoyed.let's wait!: )

Econs test got 13/25 so disappointing still wanted to take h3 econs one..haizz..Got 2 lit essays and one econs essay to do!!so many essays and then next fri is the mono exam!haizz but dunno why i not stress..BAD BAD BAD

Oh yes and recent visits to YP/PAP meet the people sessions makes me somehow interested and more passionate about helping people so I guess I am going to devote myself into Yp as well: )

Finally to those who has still not watch the kr variety show X-MAN please go watch it!It's really very funny esp the old version: )

2008-04-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

To those people who are really hao-lian and people really cannot stand you please realise it sooner so that we wont have to bother to tell you.And to those who are still as irritating as always please refer to criminal case one.advices to you guys: )

2008-04-29T21:47:00.000+08:00

BORING SCHOOL DAY!(yet again)

ps anybody want go out tmw or on labour day pm me asap!

2008-04-28T20:08:00.000+08:00

List of Recommendec Korean songs

Hi guys this is my recommended starter kit for young kpop listeners!

Epik High-Love Love Love
FT Island-Lovesick
Super Junior-WonderBoy/I'm Your Man
CSJH-My Everything
SNSD-Kissing You
Boa-Key Of Heart
Jang Ri In-Timeless(ft Xiah Junsu)
Big Bang-Lies
Brian Joo(FTTS)-I Know...But
TVXQ!-Balloons/Whatever They Say/Unforgettable

Feel free to approach me for any mp3 downloads: )

2008-04-28T20:04:00.000+08:00

It's quite boring in school today but i like this boredom.It's peaceful: )
Anyway got addicted to SNSD-Kissing you(MV ft Donghae) recently Please go
check it out it's really nice or if you like donghae: )

HOIHOI calling out to all my kpop friends!jolene deborah jianwen samantha etc
Don't forget to support upcoming albums!: )

2008-04-27T20:59:00.000+08:00

went to same old korean lessons again hehe quite fun going to end soon le though.met samantha just as she left the room and sort of 'discussed' to have sacred nine outing!hehe: )though I would rather a chalet lor.NVM!got outing good enough!haiz was thinking that I would go mjc if not for TSD then all the friends there.BUT it's alright we have to move on issint it?Just don't forget who accompanied through and stay HAPPY always: )

2008-04-26T23:53:00.000+08:00

That day when the sun set,

My footsteps took me,

Opening my eyes to a place i thought i had forgotten

Whether I still have some hatred towards you left

I want to be free now

I believed time would solve everything

Was that in itself a foolish belief?

Now, I want to just go with the flow of things

It doesn't matter to you anymore

From the start a person like you

Never existed to me the way I didn't to you

Remember one day, you'll hurt as much as i did

From someone other than myself

You'll experience the same pain

I'm sorry, this is all I can do

Really, it's the only way I can be

For that day to come, When i can start over like you

For me, who can't love you And can't help but hate you

Kim JaeJoong-Footsteps

2008-04-26T23:05:00.001+08:00

Right,I was thinking if there was anything in my life that i am proud of;something that I have accomplished and i could smile recalling this incident.yeah so this is a question that I wish to post to all you guys out there.

Proud-TVXQ

http://youtube.com/watch?v=YnjpWgPLxk0&feature=related

2008-04-26T22:43:00.000+08:00

Fan-Epik High

http://youtube.com/watch?v=YnjpWgPLxk0&feature=related

2008-04-26T08:42:00.000+08:00

Oh Won Bin Lee Hong Ki Lee Dong Hae

Kim Jun Su Kim Ki Bum Kim Jae Joong

CSJH-Stephanie SNSD Jang Ri In

Favourite Artists: )

2008-04-25T22:30:00.000+08:00

Went out with faustina debby benedict and min hui today.Haha we had a great deal of fun(too bad jolene: p)and talked loads of crap.Really glad to have a get together at this point of time where I could just laugh myself away for a moment.Todays cell was also quite inspiring.I am really angry with myself why do I have so many questions to ask,almost about everything.GRRR.Anyway I hope that we can meet again sometime soon!hehe: )Oh ya all the best to faustina and BF though I made that bet i sincerely wish you guys all the best: )And all the best to benedict on improving his jokes..haha: )

2008-04-25T22:26:00.000+08:00

I pray to God;
not to solve anything
but to give me peace
for it is when and where
I find my strength

2008-04-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

Love Love Love-Epik High

It's Midnight, your tired drunk voice 2:00 a.m.,
the abruptly ended phone call
Nobody knows how I feel I can't stop Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop Love love love
Have you ever been in love before?
Falling at first sight, like in the movies?
Spent the entire night talking on the phone?
Bragged to the entire world? Waited in the pouring rain?
Run like crazy to the one you love?
Secretly guarded? Gone crazy?
Pretended not to see when you really did?
I’m sure you have been in love
Spent all your money on your anniversary
Apologized even when you didn’t do anything wrong
Spent entire days writing love letters
Pushed back promises with your family
Prayed to God for that persons health
Ignored your friends
Missed them
Guarded their leaving figure
Can't stop love Why?
I loved you like crazy Why?
I treated you so well
I gave you everything
You got me going crazy Why?
I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you
How could you?
Nobody knows how I feel
I can't stop Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating I can't stop Love love love
Have you ever had your heart broken?
Had your makeup wash off in the pouring rain?
Cut your long hair? Picked up a ciggarette when you already quit?
Avoided areas where they might be?
Wrote letters you know you would never send?
Called them while you were drunk? (Hello?)
Had your lips freeze up
I’m sure you've had a broken heart
Hated them as much as you loved them
Ripped up letters you didn’t read
Deleted the phone number you will never forget
Celebrated anniversaries by yourself
Burned all the photographs
Thought every song about heartbreak in the world was yours
Can't stop love Why?
I loved you like crazy Why?
I treated you so well I gave you everything
You got me going crazy
Why? I loved you with all my life.
I gave you my body and soul
I lost everything for you How could you?
Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop Love love love
Cry like an idiot
Get drunk again
Hold on to your friend
And curse that person
Time passes
Get drunk again
Grab the phone Say love!
Nobody knows my heart
I can't stop Love love love
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
I can't stop Love love love
Nobody knows my heart
In reality, only you don't know
Though it hurts, I keep on repeating
As I live my life, I’m sure I'll see you again

2008-04-24T20:46:00.000+08:00

MY ECONS TEACHER SUCKS BIG TIME.She totally reminds me of ms sia though I think ms sia is so much better.A big L to teachers who cannot answer the student's question and evades them like they think they can.SCHOOL SUCKS BIG TIME.

No One to turn to
At this point of time
All i can do
Is pray that all that went clockwise
Would now go the other way
Miss you.

Anyway jolene say she and faustina's meeting me tmw dont know if she will pangseh again or not but at least there is something to look forward to after all the puking: )

2008-04-23T22:47:00.000+08:00

This is just a list of whom I wish to declare I would not
forget about them in my whole life:

-Anngi Ho
-Amanda Loh
-Benedict Chua
-Chia Cherng Ru
-Deborah Gan
-Faustina Tan
-Jolene Yeo
-Tan Kah Hui
-Ong Lee Peng
-Koh Li Ming
-Wong Wen Bin
-Yeo Xin Zi
-See Ying Qian

See you guys soon: )

2008-04-23T20:38:00.001+08:00

Have you ever encountered people that you really cannot stand?It's so interesting how people can behave in such a irritable and irresponsible manner.These few months have been an exploration journey for me(JAE).I REALLY hope that my old friends will still keep in contact with me and still have get-togethers often.I REALLY need to take a break from all the losers that make my life corrupted and bad.They are either bugging(haunting) you on the mistake that you made some ten thousand years ago,or pushing all the blame to you even though you weren't even involved.Sometimes when I open my eyes I feel like puking all the crap out but it came in the form of water.Listen to the old lie:雨过天晴.It really doesnt:If you don't do anything about it,it only gets darker and more detestable.You have to rub your hands to get that little warmth on this bleak and barren ground.You only have yourself to depend on.(And your OLD friends.)